I feel like your face is haunting me. I've seen it recently and it lifted my heart. And I hate that that was the feeling that overwhelmed me. I believe we all have one person in our life who will face us and that one person will be our "one". It's the saddest moment in our life when we realize we can't really be with the "one" but instead have to remain at a distance. When your heart leaps every time you see them or the conversations are never boring, dull or awkward. When you realize they are the "one" but you cannot do a thing, it's like a rock was thrown at your stomach and you fall backward and let the weight take away your ability to breathe.
How do you move forward or think there may be another? If years have passed and there is no change, it makes you wonder. Was that it? Am I destined to settle? Will someone ever outshine him?
I can only be hopeful. I can only think that one day, yes, a new "one" will come along.
Until that time, I think I'm okay with thinking about you. I'm okay with wondering what I life would be like with you. I'm okay with thinking you might see me differently and want something lasting from me. But I also am content at wishing you complete happiness. Maybe I can find that happiness too.
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