I like the moments where my life perspectives are altered and I'm forced to adapt to new ideas and understandings. Those times where certain things are said to you and you have that "ah-ha!" moment. Some call it clarity. I call it growing up. And growing up is tough - especially when you think you've done a lot of growing up already.
As much as I'd like to think that the perfect man exists - I've come to realize, the perfect man is truly a figment of my imagination. I have, however, found that true qualities held by the perfect man do exist but might walk around in a package slightly altered. I'd rather have slightly altered than perfect, I think. Because altered has uniqueness. And quite frankly, unique qualities outweigh the boring perfect ones. When he's not your preferred height but he is greatly educated and creative - it balances itself out. If you can smile upon seeing them in the morning, waking up with the sunlight on their skin, I think it's a sign for good things to come.
Now my 2 minute tangent: In our great digital age it seems that the electronic leash can be a bit overwhelming and rather annoying. I'm doing something a little different and letting go for certain hours during the day. I'd like to train my brain to turn off and not react to that beep, buzz or whatever. And I'm trying a different approach with people in my life. I won't go into details but I will say that some harsh criticism was thrown in my direction and while I wasn't prepared for the blow, I took it and walked off with my head high, but had no response. And though I sit here quietly and replay the words that were sent off to me, I cringe a little and wish I could re-do a lot of things. That's an impossible so instead I just take it to the future and hope to do better next time. And as for romantic escapades........ I think it's going well. This path has been bumpy, maybe sometimes too bumpy, but sometimes you can't turn away from a good thing. I'm riding this one out and I'm curious as to where it will go.
In the mean time, work calls and so does coffee. I hope to write more. Hope.
