So it's a new year and usually that means resolutions and plans to do things a little different compared to last year. But honestly... I want so much to be different it's almost insane to make such a request. I'm ready for my life to be filled with some normalcy and spirit. I have resolutions to pay off lots of debt, stay healthy and hold tight to this amazing relationship. However, it is day 2 of this brand new year and my stomach is in knots, I'm doing office work on a Sunday and I have no idea if my lovely bf is okay. Hm. Maybe not the best start to the year. I hope I have more time to write because writing is one of my best outlets - along with baking. So I'm also hoping I have more time to bake. Honestly, I hope I smile more this year and I cry less. And I hope my heart feels more joy than pain and "broken" is not used to define how I feel. Huge hopes, I suppose. Far fetched? I don't think so. I have been blessed the past few months and I hope those blessings continue. I'm probably being tested right now - testing my strength, my trust, my confidence. If I make it through the next week without a complete mental breakdown, I know I have started a great year.
I'm hopeful that my friends and family have an amazing year as well. My good blessing should be everyone's good blessings. If I can't provide you with love, I hope I can provide with a smile and a laugh. Because if you smile, even at your saddest moment, they say the smile is contagious and can lead to a happier moment. So I'll try this philosophy more often - smile at the worst moments and hope the happy overcomes me. Speaking of overcome... I'm hoping my beloved Ezra boys get their act over to the West coast so I can see them perform. More concerts this year would be great in general. I'm hoping for that as well.
Here's to a good 2011, hoping it's got a lot more happy than 2010 and the next week flies by like a quick flick.
