Oh Random Monday Morning Laughs

I'll leave the people anonymous in this conversation, but this made me giggle:

A: How does your bed feel?
B: My bed here in (insert state/location)?
A: Yup.
B: Um it feels very good, I sleep well, why?
A: Cause it sounds comfortable.
B: It does? how?
A: Cause you are there.
B: Do you want to be in my bed?
A: Yes.

LOL! People are crazy :) But maybe someone else can get a little giggle out of that too.

I'm Not Ready

So please hush. My 3 day weekend was not long enough. I'm not ready for the drama that is brought on by you and your other fellow peons. The only thing pushing me through my day is that today is Monday and, therefore, tomorrow is Tuesday. And that XM/Sirius on my phone is wicked cool and I'm glad I'm a geek.

Why is it that I have high expectations until reality sets in and soon I feel.... ew, I need to bust outta here. ???? Blows me away. I wonder if I'm becoming one of those "oh she'll never be happy" creatures. Also, I've come to realize, in the small place I cannot grow. In the big place, I can. So ... there you have it... my mission for the rest of the year: ponder big or small, up or status quo.

Please... please be quiet. Don't say a word. Let's just have this Monday blow by as if it were nothing and there is no drama and no one is asking me what I decided and no one is yelling or having their fucking period (when they are men). Yes, please, is that too much to ask?

Recap

Have not blogged in awhile. Much has happened. Let's rewind and try to fast forward:

* New job since end of March is fantastic. Still fantastic. Swept the bullshit under the carpet when it walked out the door and have not looked back since. I'd like to think my work atmosphere is a great symphonic piece that has movements that are up and down and slow and fast. But overall, this great composer is trying to make her mark.

* Life in Colorado? Not so great. My social network is D.E.A.D. Apparently I have the anti gene cus no one ever wants to hang out. Am I that pathetic? My network is actually still in Arizona. As is my lost and broken relationship. Haha, yes, broken. That's another subcategory all on its own. Back to my social network, or lack thereof... My few outings here have been great. I know the friends who have my back and look out for me, but I also know they are in serious relationships, if not married, so it hinders their ability to go out. Kind of a bum, but what can you do? I'm hoping that as I continue to live in this great place that things will change. That whole "loser" vibe kinda sinks over a person when they are such a homebody and really don't want to be.

* My relationship... it's dying. And it's no persons fault, that's the crazy thing. It's a matter of two people who see things rather differently and that middle ground is hard to reach. I want something. He can't change. Seems simple but it's also so very complicated. I wonder... how can love be so difficult? Could it be two hearts just are not meant to be? I try not to let my mind wander down that path but eventually I'll have to face it. For now... breathing room. Just need to breathe. I'm not the one hanging out with people of the opposite sex one-on-one just yet, but maybe I should. Who knows.

* I need my space. I need my comforts. I need to make things happen now. I've come to not like things in my life and that just makes me bitter and unhappy. If matters of the heart are ill, then the matters of the home life need to be good. Unfortunately, they are both a bit ill and I need to fix that. I'm working swiftly to make something happen but the whole $$ comes up and I'm not sure what to do. I only hope time heals the heart and mind and my life turns back around soon.

* I want to dance and sing and laugh and play. I want to smile and cheer and squeal with delight. I don't think that's something too big for life or too big to want. My expectations might be high but damn I've compromised and sacrificed a lot.. I want to be happy too. I only hope that soon, very soon, I can smile and grin and let the fun days wrap up my heart and make my life explode with good vibes. Soon... I'm quite hopeful.

Smitten

I have seen Pride and Prejudice a dozen times these past few months, both the Colin Firth version and the Matthew McFayden version and will admit that I could watch them a dozen times more without boredom. I whole heartedly feel that all gentlemen seeking a lady should take tips from the wonderful and awfully romantic Mr. Darcy. Both Matthew and Colin do these roles great justice. Colin portrays the romantic brooding fellow divinely and one cannot help but feel swept up in his eyes. And Matthew, the romantic Darcy.... I swoon!! If only a man such as Darcy truly existed! The look of being smitten and wanting to make a woman happy without the decision of sex. It is about love and value of one another. Ah, to have a Darcy!! I know there are good men and kind and nice... But our lives are so different then those depicted in Austen novels. I to wish I could be the Amanda in Lost in Austen. Oh I think I would give it all up if my life could be an Austen novel!!

Elizabeth Bennett is a great character, if only one could aspire to be like her... In a modem way. :)

I love me some romantic Austen novels :)

Paper Empire

Review of Better Than Ezra's 7th studio album, Paper Empire:

I sat down and listened to this album with zero expectations. Lately I have been wrapped up in newer bands with a new and different sound.... especially when compared to BTE whom I've been listening to since 1995 (holy 14 years!). With that said...

I'm 100% impressed with this album. As one person stated, each Ezra album comes out and it has it's own unique identity. I look back on each past album that has come out and each strikes me with a different emotional chord. And Paper Empire is no exception.

I had heard a few KG tracks when he made note of them on Myspace, and I listened closely to find his lyrics shine through with ease. But hearing them on the compilation, I feel they are a little more vibrant. Maybe it's the fact that those songs are wrapped up neatly under 'Better Than Ezra', as opposed to just KG (though if he produced a solo album, you would not hear me complain). I have also had 'Absolutely Still' on my ipod since it was aired on New Orleans radio but I refused to spin it obnoxiously repetitive because I really wanted Paper Empire to be an experience. And I truly feel I made the right decision.

I could say some of the songs have a more mellow vibe than the others, or that I was waiting for the cliff hanger moment of complete "awww" during certain songs and sighed when it never came through, but these things are not as important as the overall picture: this band with a cult-like following, after 15+ years, has produced yet another solid and impressive album. From Deluxe to Paper Empire, I can't help but feel that I have seen something small grow into something grand and amazing. From the turning melodies of 'Absolutely Still', to the raucous beats of 'Hell No!' (which I feel reeks of Ezralite insanity), the get on your feet 'All In', down to the beautifully spellbinding 'I Just Knew', Paper Empire is an impressive piece of work for a band of this caliber.

I have to also mention the album artwork. I have heard feedback that people are not particularly keen on the cartoonish/free-hand colorful work of Lorin Brown, but I am. I think its unique and really makes the album complete. This album is different. It has elements of old Ezra mixed with solo sounds and experimental beats. The album artwork, both on the cover and in the sleeve (yes! a CD that had me browsing the sleeve for an hour plus!), is a symbol of the unique sound quality and music styles dancing off the disk. I would give a lot to have this album on vinyl. That would be priceless.

Two thumbs up.... way up.

A Craving of Sorts

Rough. Raw. Pure.
Breathing in through her nose, she smells the thick, hot air mix with musky cologne. Clothes cling to the skin as the air does not move and the room is equipped with only one, small, fan.
Gripping. Holding. Feeling.
The window behind her is open up to her shoulders, the hot air breezes inside and stirs around the room.
Her eyes glance across the room. Standing in tan shorts, the beads of sweat glistening on his chest, arms, collar bone and brow. His masculine and strong hands grip a wet towel, gliding it across his forehead to calm the heat.
Against the wall.
Cotton hits the floor.
A button falls and rolls across the wood, catching sunlight and bouncing it back upon the flesh.
The heat beats around her and swallows her in its tight grip. He pulls her waist into his and her fingers grip at the wall behind her.
From the outside looking in, one could only see the golden flesh of an arm, a thigh, the bare ribcage and navel.
Her hand on his chest, feeling his heart beating fast.
Heat. Desire.
Her eyes meet his. Lips part and the air escapes their lungs. They grip. They plea for more air. Moving with the heat and finding themselves on the wood floor, the sunshine making stripes upon their bodies.
Dazed. Weak. Spent.
She stares at him with his eyes closed and then focuses her gaze outside the window. The dirt road from two stories high is sparse with people. She grabs the wet towel and cools her skin.
The button lays casually on the floor. The clothing is scattered.
She catches his eye and he only smiles and gazes...
Fingers touch and move, slowly over curves and tan skin. The heat intensifies once more and she falls to the floor overwhelmed with exhaustion, pleasure, satisfaction...

you dont like my sweet grooves??

In my mind and in my eyes
it goes a little something like this...

Every night its a party on the corner
Hands in the air and hips swaying to the beat.
Senses thrown into the wind
The DJ plays the best song 20 times in a row.
First impressions are false reflections
of something that never exists.
Reality is the constant beat that motivates,
That tells the story,
Paints the picture,
With music notes dotting every I and crossing every T.
"Come on, come on, come on, lemme show you what it's all about"
Not all the book smarts can make you see
What really exists beneath,
Until you move and nod
To the rhythms between you and me.
A quiet exterior but fierce within,
Turn up the speakers and watch the world explode.
You think you know but really you don't,
Maybe take a guess or silly assumption,
but join the party on the corner and open your eyes
It's bound to be more fun when you come along
Because your company might be the best there is...

She's Rising To The Top

My good friend is getting spotlighted once again!! woohoo!!! Much praise for Poor Girl Eats Well and her awesome recipes which are delicious, healthy and good to your wallet. She has recently been featured in the Sacramento News & Review. You can read the article here.

I am very proud of my friend and think EVERYONE should follow her tips, tricks and recipes as much as possible. Eating healthy is wonderful. And doing it while on a budget? Even better.

You rock Kimberly, I'm so proud of you!!!!