Maybe Its The Meds

I just don't find certain things or people interesting anymore. I thought this was a phase, but the phase has gone on for two months now. To me, that's not a phase. Certain things I was interested in, certain people, I just don't give a flying patooey about anymore. I sometimes wonder why but then I think, "ya know, I'm moving forward and that's just not a part of me anymore." And I'm quite okay with this.

I am a deep believer in moving forward and change. Change for good. Change for the positive. And moving forward with life, taking on new interests and hobbies, but retaining those qualities and behaviors that make you interesting. When I see people who are the same way they were 5 years ago - yuck. I want to say, "um, you know you are predictable, right?" I feel like a snot for thinking that but it's just how my thought process flows. Interests come and go - and this particular interest has clearly fled from my body. Which I am okay with because I have filled up that space with other interests. And the people? Well the people involved in that interest, who were somehow linked to it, I have kind of let them go as well - to an extent. I don't burn bridges - but I clearly have no interest. I don't like to read their blogs anymore because they are predictable. Its the same thing I have been reading for many years. And thats just not worth my time. Did I mention the predictable factor? Overrated. You know if something goes bad - you can predict what they will say or write. It's bizarre.

So maybe I'm a particular snot. Hahaha. But at least I'm unique and willing to move forward with my life - regardless of the hardships. Oh, and that thing that is still in my head that I can't get rid of? It's still there. Its annoying. I truly wish that it would go away because it really fucks around with other shit in my life. Annoying.