If I knew you read this, I probably wouldn't write. But seeing as how you don't care, I can safely assume you do not read. Why do I bother to let you slither into my life? This I cannot answer. But apparently it's incredibly difficult to pull you out of my head. And I know you want out, and I want you out too. I'm doing the best I can. I'm moving through each day thinking less of you and less of that life. But sometimes I read something, I hear something, I feel something, and I fall to my knees and cry. It's clear to me I am just a silly fool who fell for the spell. It's clear to me that I'm in the shadows and will forever remain in this location. It's clear to me that though your character and qualities are what I strive to find, I am nothing more to you than a pretty face and a pretty girl.
Why do I cry for you? Why do I shed precious tears because of you? When you are done playing your game and feel like you want me out of the shadows, you know what you need to do and where to find me. For now, I need to say goodbye. I'm too involved in something that gives me nothing. And I deserve something, a lot more than nothing. Take pride in knowing that I will always feel for you and hold a space for you, but I cannot keep up this pace. It's ridiculous. If you are ready and you can catch me, maybe. Good luck.
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