I came from somewhere

03/04/07

The years have gone by and quietly we parted
You never saw me grow, you never saw me fail
You were there when i was little,
You were part of my childhood.
The talk of you while time passed quietly
Was uneasy but not unspoken,
You may not have been perfect,
You may have had your failures,
But you were still a father, and a papa.
I always wished I'd had a closer connection
I always wished you'd cared more,
But I always understood that people are different,
People have hearts they may not be able to express.
And though people continue
To talk of things you should have done or did not do,
You were still a father, and a papa.
I refuse to think harsh,
I refuse to feel bad blood no matter what happened
Or what did not happen,
I am sad you have left,
I am sad you have been so quiet,
But I hope you are happy now, Papa,
You've left the world to be in peace,
You've left behind the best daughter possible,
She is the world's greatest mother.
Though I wish things were different,
Though I wish I could have made different decisions,
I understand and I do not feel bad,
I am only sad I could not say goodbye.