Something better

Im listening to a great band tonight, one that im very familiar with and know all of their songs. But tonight as i was listening, there was one song that hit me. . . Hard. The song was about the other person making the other wait, wait for something better, or better off. Basically a person constantly looking for the next best thing. Hm. Why does that feel so relatable (yes i made that word up), as if it were from MY head? Dont answer that question. Because im not answering that question. But what is even better, is that i dont know why i cant, or dont want, to answer it. Its like i can see what im doing, and i know what im thinking but something, or someone, is preventing me from linking everything together. Thus, im not ever fully satisfied. And i want to be. But i want my life, my relationships, to be like the my favorite songs. To be the emotions i feel when i listen to music because music defines me, my life. But i cant get that feeling. And then im not satisfied. Fuck.