here goes

July 31, 2007:

This has been circling in my head for a long time and I guess it's about time I spit it out....

From afar people have looked at you and wondered what made your world spin brightly. Glancing at you as if you were unbreakable, unbeatable, and wise beyond your years. At a safe distance we saw you as a unique being who carried interesting qualities quite uncommon for those of our generation. You pushed yourself over hurdles that would have made others give up. Striving to succeed, your drive was seen in your eyes.

This we has now become just me. And I still stand from a distance wondering.... I'd give it all up if I knew you would share some intellect and company. An admiration that endures, and yet you will walk on never knowing, never seeing. If only you knew how you stir my emotions and ease my mind. But to admit these things to you, would be admitting defeat. Why break and fall when there is no one there to catch you? A safe distance is probably where my feet should stay.... unless one day you can open your eyes and see what was always standing right in front of you. For now, the admiration will linger on, for I have reached the end of ideas of how to rid the feeling from my mind. If ever your eyes could read this, I hope you would see, that someone is hoping the best for you, wanting so badly to admit defeat in your arms, and comfort your soul......if ever you could just see.