Why can't I...

Just let you go. Just let you walk away. I feel bruised every time I see you. It hurts but I smile. "Grin and bear it". And I do. But I'd give anything for you to turn around and cut me lose or turn around and pull me closer. This middle ground is too hard to handle. Don't you get it? You are walking on me as if I was nothing, yet you talk to me as if I was something. As the song goes "and though my life is where I want it to be, I'd give it up if we could just start again". I hate that you affect me. I hate that you make me feel like crying at the same time you make me smile. You have no idea who you are or who I am, but I adore you. It's a mystery what brought me to you but it's a mystery I keep close. Please let me go. It's Daylight that I seek and though I wish you to be there with me, you are not who I thought you were. And maybe you never were. Let me go or pull me in. Do something - but do it soon. You are a burden I cannot hold any longer.