Time To Go

To go back, back to where I began, where I started over. But this time, this time I do it right and I do it with everyone in the right place. It's powerful, this feeling, this emotion so overwhelming. Like hope flowing over. I tried this once, I think I tried it twice, but this time, I plan to make it through and not falter. And if I do, if falter is in the experience, I know I'll have my army standing behind me. I have this great world, this great atmosphere, that I am truly wanting to share. I want to open my doors and broaden horizons. I want to smile every time I wake up knowing the decision I made was the best.

Where I sit now I do not see any future. I do not see hope and I do not see progression. In fact, I see instability, humiliation, failure, stale air, insecurities and obscurities. I do not see a future life or a future happiness. For these reasons I plan to make a resolution to do what is necessary to get to the place I started, the place I was born, and make my life whole.

People jump around and constantly move to find who they are and who they want to be. The movers in the world are constantly in action and never ready to settle. I am a mover and I understand the method to my madness. I understand my inability to be still, my A.D.D. of life. But going through the up and down and the back and forth has taught me that it's not WHERE you are, but WHO you are with. I left, I came, I left, and came again. This time, I've come back for one thing. And when I leave, I leave WITH that thing. That is the turning point to this realization of life. I can stop constantly moving because I have the WHO figured out... and no matter where we go, as long as we're together, everything will be okay.

I'd like to plan to go back, again, but for the last time. I came back for one thing and made it happen. Now it's time to look forward and make things happen, positively, with my eyes wide open to all the possibilities.