Chomp chomp.
Apparently my happy blog of Monday meant Tuesday and Wednesday should go to shit. No joke. The session with the dude Monday night went all too serious on my ass and I stumbled out dragging my hapless soul with me. Next week: ooo, get to talk about something that I've needed to talk about for awhile and apparently "there is more behind it" than what I think. Great. Woohoo. Party at the docs office!
Move on to Tuesday. Worst. Headache. Ever. I know a migraine. A migrain is an unfriendly bitch that says "no light, no loud noises, just dulllllll ache in the head". Tuesdays episode was more like this: what the fuck is that sharp pounding intense pain in my head and oh-my-good-god why won't it stop? Tears almost came forth from my eyes - I kid you not. Meds came and saved me for a few hours. I slept. Pain came back, jagged, mid-day and then subsided into a dull ache behind my eyes. "Go to the eye doctor" the boy persists. I hear him - loud and clear. I just refuse to think/believe/realize that my 20-20 is in fact, not so great. Huge sigh over here.... tackle the eye doctor soon.
Move on to Wednesday (that would be today) and it's just not pretty. No details to be had because it's just too personal. But let's just say that it's not a pretty or happy thought and I'm awfully upset at what I have learned. Why does life have to be so unfair to people? Gee golly can't we all just be WELL?
Of course, the one thing I'd like to do... cuddle up with something good, get a nice, warm, comforting "its okay" hug, ain't gonna happen. So I'm going to get cozy with some ice cream and my dogs because they aren't too busy. Remind me again why I give, and am nice, and give a shit?? yeah.... no answer.... I thought so.
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