Maybe Its Just Not Right For Me

I am getting so tired of people being rude. And maybe they are not being rude - but damn it all - their communication SUCKS. Maybe its because I expect things, I expect respect, I expect open lines of communication, I expect.... Maybe I shouldn't. I am so tired of feeling belittled or feeling that someone is being condescending towards me. What is WRONG with this group of people?? Here I thought this would never happen - and here it is, happening, again. Is it me??? Is there some memo I did not receive??? I'm starting to believe I missed a chapter somewhere. I understand that most people of this calibur are grossly the same and this type of behavior is typical - BUT - don't they see that it makes people pissed off AND it makes them not want to work with them???

I need a punching bag. Maybe that is something I should pick up - boxing, kick boxing, something. Something that will allow me to literally throw out this anger. Something that will allow me to get the thought of someone saying "Amanda..." in a way that makes me feel like I'm less than dirt and that I can do things properly. And I want to respond with "but that is what you TOLD me to do...." But I can't. I can't say a thing because saying something would be out of line, out of character, and not ethical professional behavior. So here I sit, stewing because some people canNOT learn to understand the intricacies or details of certain... things.

Fuck. Maybe this stuff is just not for me. Maybe I'm not meant to take this abuse. Is it abuse? or is it just me? Whatever the case, maybe it really is not for me.