The Times are Changing

You know how people say "change is good" and most often you expect the best things to happen in your life when you go through said changes? Expectations are the pits when they go awry. The concept of understanding what is in front of you, seeing the "real thing", seems to have faded. The trend seems to be to "fake it" and then find yourself at a loss for words when the situation appears to have been corrupted. Then you learn that your eyes weren't really wide open, and you were blindsided by a fake reality. A fake reality. Time ago that seemed impossible for one to find or admit, but it exists, and exists in many of those appearing most innocent. A little situation, seeming to be under control, bursts, and twists into a shape you cannot handle or hold. It has changed from simple and innocent, to unmanageable and somewhat unbearable. Changing so rapidly and drastically you have to stop in your tracks and think "what the fuck just happened, and why?"
There are people in your life that have the same affect. They appear to be innocent, they act innocent, they present themselves in a false reality, their reality, that is so two-sided it is also almost unbelievable once it is revealed. The idea that a person, a whole person, could create a world for themselves where they are of one personality in one situation, and of another personality in a different situation, its almost magical. I say magical, but I mean dark magic. The magic that makes the hair on your arms and neck rise because it is so bizarre and unreal. But there you are staring right at it, how could it not be real?
I understand that people react differently in certain situations, and I also understand that people hold grudges, have their walls up, etc. etc. in certain settings. But the tw0-sided character is one who seems to literally have, two sides to themselves. They have side A which (just as an example) could be very nice, very pleasing, appearing very innocent and young, very smart, not overly flouting of their outer appearance. Then you have side B (just as an example) which appears to be rather scandalous, flaunting of the appearance, very flirtatious and very contradicting of character A. And as a person who has witnessed side A, what is one to do when they learn of side B? In words I cannot write a detailed enough example to portray with great clarity the difference between side A and side B. But I can say these people exist, and it strikes me as odd. In my life, I am who I am. When I go to work I have my thinking cap on, I'm in the mood to get the job done. But I will tell you things to your face, that I would if I was at a bar, at school or in my own home. I would tell you things regardless of who you were, because I am me and I feel that is all I can be, its all I know. Yet when I run across someone who is one way in front of me, to my face, and a completely different person away from me, I am startled. I cannot figure this out.
I get startled when situations end up going this route as well. You assume a situation is going to go a certain way, but then somehow it gets all fuzzy and you end up looking down a path that looks only partially similar to what you expected. Then what do you do? Accept the change regardless of how it makes you feel? A situation I have recently experienced has made me feel more out of touch with my life than ever before. This is where I feel I was blindsided. I was expecting something else, I was assuming, something else. Now I stand here, feeling like I'm not a whole person, I am just a slightly invisible being, waiting for my path to finish being built. Some bricks are laid, and of what I can see, it does not look the way I expected.

Life changes fast. I was not expecting it. People have surprised me, startled me, and I have had to apologize to myself for being naive and a pushover. Now I must sit back and see what the stars have in store for me.